Blue Fire and Red Wires

You know what you must do.

year walk is an interesting game <3 very pretty.

You know what you must do.

year walk is an interesting game <3 very pretty.

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but morning person + not morning person could make the worst (or maybe the best?) otp

"Gooooood morning dear :)" "fuck you and everything you stand for"

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megatronus said: well it takes a while because I'm in a similar boat such as yours, but eventually things will just being to settle down and you'll adjust to things, changes may not always seem like the best thing, but they can be good down the long run!

I agree big changes probably attributes to the depression. Alot of stuff has happened so quickly I don’t know how to feel. Thanks bb. i’ll try and stay strong and ride it out So you do your best too! 

wykkyds said: I'm not really sure how to fix the happiness on auto problem, but I hope you start feeling better...! If you need someone to rant at hmu.

Thank you! I think it has alot to do with I’m so used to/conditioned to cheering up and bringing up others before myself so I don’t know how to properly express negative emotions. But I also don’t want to outwardly show how much of a shit mood I’m in y’know? (don’t want to bring others down with me)

Catch up time

Sorry everyone for my recent inactivity, I went back home to visit my family for Korean thanksgiving and found out My grandmother was badly injured in a fall. It’s been a really big issue and now that I’m back home I sorely miss her as well as my younger sister who’s been my rock.

I also attended SPX and had some fun catching up with my friends this weekend which was great also.

I do have a question. I wonder… I am severely depressed and really unhappy (somewhat lonely, but not really? Feels kinda empty) but on auto I’ve been acting incredibly upbeat to everyone when all I really want to do is cry.

How do you fix such issues? The Happiness on auto thing. (i know the depression bit is fixed by x-y-and z) 












"I loved you, always.”

going to comment a little on this game: the overseeing voice talks as if it owns you, and defies your free will. if you follow its orders, you are praised, and the worldview becomes sharper and more detailed. if you don’t, you are chastised, and the world becomes more vague and difficult to navigate, but also more colourful and loud. it’s odd, and sort of eerie, but definitely interesting. take it as you will.

This game really unsettles me. It unsttles me that my first choice to obey, and when I played again and disobeyed, I got really emotional really fast. Failure hurt me more the more I disobeyed. It was… interesting to experience.

i’ve always said we are trained to obey more than to think.

holy shit. i reblogged this the first time without playing. then i played in and it is terrifying. i very much like this, but it will give you intense feelings. 

What’s the game??

you obey everything the game tells you too, even jumping into barbs and basically killing yourself. if you dont youre chastised and even the scolding is terrifying

So, essentially, it’s a game that illustrates what it’s like to be in an abusive parents or an abusive relationship - and how it affects you emotionally. That is horrific and ingenious - the next time someone negates the affects of emotional abuse, I’ll take them to this game and let them come to their own conclusions.

This game absolutely gets it. The most solid and reliable degradation is a gendered insult. The more you obey and co-operate, the better understanding you seem to have of your word, and things seem easier. But what really gets me is the contradiction. You are not allowed to have the correct answer. Are you a boy or a girl? The answer is no, I will give you the answer. even towards the end, your “praise” is “no, I will give you the answer. You earned this answer, but it is given to you by me.” Disobeying makes the world frightening and confusing and difficult, but beautiful in a world devoid of flavour.

Not just a gendered insult, either. The nameless voice that directs the player’s actions is supposed to be a hateful, abusive monster, and when the game’s designers asked themselves “okay, what’s the most degrading, dehumanising thing this voice could possibly do to the player?”, the answer they came up with was “deliberately misgender them”.

Played it both ways — one where I implicitly obeyed everything and the other where I defied wherever I could.

Both endings are abrupt and without any sort of contextual resolution. When you obey, you’re praised and you’re given a clear landscape and what appears to be a coin (so a reward), but with the clear knowledge everything is at the behest of the voice, who is so very pleased to own you. When you play the game defyingly, the voice that smugly tells you that it will make you beg ends up being the one that begs at the end. “Why do you hate me? I loved you.” “Where will you go? Will you stay close?” You’re given the choice between going and staying. If you choose to go, you’re given an unending corridor to walk through filled with the colorful glitchy distortion obscuring everything. It ends as you walk down it.

On one hand, you’re given the world you know, with all your needs met, but none of the will. On the other hand, you’re given a world of opportunity that’s entirely yours but it’s undefined, unknown, and unending.

It’s definitely an emotional experience.

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